Before I left to go into hospital, I worked hard to reach a certain point in my WIP. Happy I’d achieved this, I left knowing it meant I would be able to slip back into writing as soon as possible after discharge. Only that didn’t happen. To be quite honest I had no idea how weak the procedure had left me. When my OH came to collect me I had been up and about for a couple of days. But walking around the confines of a hospital ward isn’t quite the same as venturing outside and crossing the car park to reach the car on a bright but chilly March morning. Added to this, I’d emerged into a very different world from the one I had left the day I was admitted. Three days before my operation date we’d had lunch at a local pub. Although Covid-19 was happening the world still functioned as normal. Now we were in lockdown which meant self isolation, social distancing and many other restrictions. I remember the city streets as we drove home. Normally busy and full of shoppers and tourists, they were now eerily quiet.
My first full day at home passed quietly. As someone who is busy most of the time, it felt really strange not only doing absolutely nothing, but not feeling I wanted to. It wasn’t just a physical thing, I felt mentally drained too. Thankfully my amazing OH had taken charge of all things domestic and was doing a fabulous job. On my second day home I pushed myself and managed a short walk to the top of our road. From that day it became a daily ritual, extending the distance a little each time, to help build up my strength and get pack to pre-op fitness. But although I embraced this new daily regime and gradually got back to normality, first cooking then to other non- lifting domestic chores, I still had absolutely no interest in writing. Two weeks passed and nothing had changed. I wasn’t really in the mood to sit in front of the computer and look at my manuscript. I was still reading and writing reviews. I could happily do that but had absolutely no enthusiasm for my own work. The following week I have to admit there was a moment of panic. Would this lethargy eventually go away? Or was this going to be my new normal from now on? Had I totally lost interest in creating those parallel universes? Were my days of being an author over? Had I fallen off the writing horse? Would I ever to be able to climb back on?
Well I’m delighted to say it all ended well. One morning after breakfast last week I decided this was make or break day. That I’d open up the computer and check out my manuscript. The worst thing that could happen, I told myself, was that I would look at my work and realise the spark had gone and couldn’t do this anymore. Thankfully that didn’t happen. As soon as the ms was on screen it was as if I’d never been away. It seems I’d got the timing right. I was ready to get back to work again. I guess the whole thing was a little like writer’s block. It meant stepping back, being patient and waiting, hoping my enthusiasm for my own words would kick start once more. So now the writing is flowing once more and my second Cornish romance – although slightly delayed – is very much on course for publication later this year.
10 thoughts on “April Update – Falling off the writing horse…”
Glad to hear you are recovering well, and at the pc too!
Thank you Jaye x
Welcome back to the writing world, Jo!
Thank you Hemmie x
Oh Jo, it’s no surprise you felt physically and mentally drained. You’ve been through so much. What a joy to read that your writing mojo has returned. As you say, patience really was key. May your recovery and your writing enthusiasm continue from strength to strength. Much love xx
Thank you Jan, it did have me worried for a while. So glad it eventually returned. Looking forward to reading your new book xx
All the best with your recuperation, Jo – and with your reignited love of writing!
Thanks Sara x
So pleased you’ve climbed back on. You’ve been through a tough time and life isn’t back to normal at the moment. But you’re getting there and the writing will help. You’re too good an author not to keep going. A lot of us writers had lost that impetus and mojo considering what was and is happening in the world, I know I had but thankfully, like you it’s come back. Keeping going, keep smiling and keep writing. You’ll feel better each day and each day so will the world. Much love xxx
Thanks Kit, I now have deadlines for another brief edit/final check and formatting so it’s going to happen! Glad your writing has bounced back. Take care and when we get back to normal we must meet up!